Mom, this weekend was UEA weekend and your brothers and sisters went up to a cabin again. I wasn't able to go and honestly i don't feel too bad about it because I know how hard it would have been. Melissa went and said it was painful.
It did get me thinking about all the times we went to Grandma's cabin over UEA weekend. It was my favorite trip of the year. I loved being around the cousins with the crisp fall air. Playing in the creek, flag football, night games, Grandma's hikes up the road while she sang the whole way, and of course the homemade doughnuts.
I loved seeing you with your family. It always seemed like you could let go and really be you when you were around them. We would make fun of you when you were cheesy but when you were with your sisters you could be cheesy and silly with them. I know how much you loved your family and how much you liked to be with them. You passed that on to me and for that I am grateful.
This weekend was also conference weekend and we went up to Bear Lake with some friends. It was a nice break from the every day grind and very relaxing. I was thinking this conference of the times we would go up to La Platta for fall General Conference. The leaves were beautiful and we brought the radio with us and listened, had a picnic, went on hikes, etc. It was a really great tradition that I think next year I will start with my own family. There is nothing like being surrounded by all of God's creations while listening to inspiring talks.
Both of these memories just remind me of what a wonderful mother you really are. You gave so much to us to create such beautiful memories. I wish they could be sweet right now but they are still very painful to think about. Someday though I hope to look back without feeling that deep pain but feeling gratitude of the time I did get with you. I love you.
