Wow, alot more changes this year. Remember when I said no more changes for a while. Hello? I guess you didn't listen to that request. I guess I shouldn't make any more requests like that, it just sets me up for failure.
The changes have been good for the most part but change is always hard for me. Even if it is good change. Dad has remarried. I am so glad he has found a companion to share the rest of his life with. He seems happy and she is great with a great family. The adjustments with the marriage will take some time to get used to. And that is what I don't like. I wish it was 5 years down the road where things have kind of settled in and there was some sort of normal again. But such is life and I will make the best of it.
I have been thinking lately about all the things in my life that are affected by you being gone. Going over to your house at night with my boys hoping you have made dinner so I don't have to, babysitting, you making me feel better when I just feel fat and prego, having your help for a week after baby arrives, calling me to ask how I'm doing....etc. This list could go one for EVER and I won't sit here and feel sorry for myself by making it longer. Life is hard and that is a lesson I have learned, especially in the last year. And life isn't just hard for me but for EVERYONE around me. But this list does make me wonder....am I selfish for wanting those things and missing those things? Is that bad?
